Gratitude

I write a lot every week. I’ve got a novel in progress, and during November, I try to binge on it (I’m currently behind in my NaNoWriMo word count, but I’ve added a scene almost every day since the start of the month). I also keep a journal, post on my blog, stay in touch with friends by email, and do morning pages (more on those in an upcoming post). But the most important writing I do is keeping a gratitude journal.

Both “keep” and “journal” are inappropriate words for me to use in that sentence. I write my gratitude on scraps of paper, frequently on the reverse of to-do lists that are finished. And I never hang on to them, or even read them over. I write them down and into the recycle bin they go. And that’s the way it works for me. The single important thing is the act of writing down what I’m grateful about.

Feeling gratitude is one of a small number of things proven by researchers in “positive psychology” to increase happiness. And that’s about half the reason that feeling gratitude is important: to feel better. And the other half, honestly, is to make the world a better place.

I’m not an outwardly-focused person, or a humble person. Writing down my gratitude is a corrective for both those things. I recognize and acknowledge how other people have helped me, and how there are things in the world that I love, and that I wouldn’t be as successful as I am if the universe wasn’t providing an invisible platform of support for everything I do.

I do it with a pen. I don’t stop until the page is full. Certain people get a mention every time — whether it’s near the top or near the bottom of the page may depend on what’s on my mind at that moment. I quite often write them at night, after I get into bed. But I might do one any time, if the sense comes over me that I’m not in balance and I might need to feel a sense of appreciation and love and blessing.

I have so much to be grateful for, and it’s not the purpose of this blog to make those things public, but it is hugely important to me that I know those things myself. A few nights ago I was waiting to fall asleep, after I had already written a page of gratitude notes and tossed it into the bin, I began to be flooded with dozens of other names and images. People who have been in my life, who have helped me in some way with friendship or who have perhaps strengthened me with their antagonism. So many beautiful human souls, starting with my parents and sisters and grandparents and my very first childhood neighborhood friends. I tried to slow myself down and let them flow through me in a systematic way, year by year, remembering people I went to school with, teachers, friends of the family. And for each face, I tried to feel a moment of gratitude and send a blessing. Immersing myself in the memories of all these people who were part of my life, one after another…

It took me two hours to get up to 1990, and that’s where I started again the next night.

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Lyrics

The idea of a songwriting team – a lyricist and a composer – seems anachronistic, an artifact of the past.  Tin Pan Alley, the glory days of Broadway musicals, the American Songbook.  Since the rock era began, it’s much less common to find songs written by structured partnerships in this way. 

I’m a member of one of these quaint collaborations, though.  I have been a lyricist for more than forty years for my very good friend C.P. Butchvarov.  Some of the best creative experiences of my life have been wrapped up in collaborative songwriting.

Both C.P. and I write songs without each other, as well.  As a musician and composer, I’m barely competent; as a lyricist, C.P. is damn good.  But we don’t suffocate ourselves by trying to make every song dependent on each other.

As the person who writes the words, I’m aware that lyrics are the least important aspect of a song.  For most songs, I believe that the lyrics carry less than ten percent of the impact for the listener.  The words can be stupid, they can be nonsense, and the song can still be great.  In my opinion, the primary responsibility of the lyricist is to make vocal sounds that fit the melody and the arrangement.  That’s the fundamental logic behind my preference that the words should be written after the music.

The perfect musical setting can make a line of lyrics vault into the realm of greatness.  Here’s an example from a music-and-lyrics songwriting team, Elton John and Bernie Taupin: “I’ve finally decided my future lies beyond the yellow brick road.”  I’m fairly certain the lyrics were written first and put to music in this case.  The song has a beautiful melody with an unpredictable chord progression.  When it comes to this final line, the vocal takes on a march rhythm, then unexpectedly and brilliantly soars into a different key.  That moment brings chills, and as lovely as they are, it isn’t Bernie’s words that do that to me.

A flawless line of lyrics can make a song more memorable.  Another composer/lyricist team I admire is Jerry Garcia and Robert Hunter of the Grateful Dead.  I confess that I get impatient with some of Jerry’s slow, trudging melodies.  I’d probably skip over the song “Candyman” every time I listen to “American Beauty” if it wasn’t for this gem of a couplet: “Good morning, Mister Benson, I see you’re doing well.  If I had me a shotgun, I’d blow you straight to hell.”

Songwriting is a process with magic and alchemy involved. There is no thrill greater than listening back to a powerful song and feeling I can’t believe I wrote that!  C.P. Butchvarov wrote a song called “Mountain Country” that was amazing, but I lobbied him over a barroom table in Grand Teton National Park to let me rewrite the lyrics.  Thanks, C.P., for letting me have a little piece of the credit for this great song.  Listen to the result here.

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Proofreading

At age 13 I read the proofs of my dad’s first book (Designing the Communication Experiment by John Waite Bowers). The original meaning of “proofreading” was the necessary step of closely reading proof pages from the printer, since errors might have occurred when the author’s manuscript was transferred to type at a print shop for publishing. This was the author’s last chance to fix anything before hundreds or thousands of copies of the book rolled off the presses.

I earned a penny for each error that I found in dad’s proofs, but I got a bonus payment of a nickel for identifying a chart that had its X and Y axes reversed. Maybe that positive reinforcement was why I learned to enjoy proofreading.

In my experience, many authors are not good proofreaders of their own work. This becomes a serious problem for somebody who is self-publishing. Get somebody to read it for you before you go to final formatting. You may be blind to your own errors.

When Nobody’s Wife was published, I wasn’t given the chance to proofread before the book went to press. It has some mortifying errors in it. One of the worst is that the word “Foreword” was misspelled “Forward.” It turns out there must be a lot of people who don’t know the difference between those two words, because I’ve seen that same mistake in books several times since then.

In college I worked a couple of semesters at Windhover Press, setting type by hand and proofreading when a book was ready to be printed. We proofread in pairs, backward. One person read aloud from the author’s manuscript while the other person read the proofed pages, but we read the words in reverse, from end to beginning. It’s tedious but it’s a good technique, because reading forward, your mind and eye will skip over errors and fill them in mentally. Reading backward, it is impossible to attach meaning to the words and so you notice them for what they are, artifacts of ink on a page.

I recently proofed the final draft of a book for a friend who is self-publishing. I like closely reading another author’s work; I learn about variations in writing voice and styles. The reading-backward technique is not feasible when solo proofing, because you will fail to notice sentences that are missing words or have words in the wrong order. I adapted a little bit by reading some of the pages from the bottom paragraph to the top, so that I would not fall into the reading trance.

Proofreading is not the same thing as editing. In my mind, a proofreader should only mark real errors, and that means skipping past places where a sentence could have been phrased more clearly or another word would have been a better choice. But in proofreading for a friend, I might find it irresistible to mark the worst of those with suggested revisions. That’s just being helpful, right?

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Waiting

For me, inspiration is much the same thing as realization.  Thinking about a factory setting in my novel in progress, Wash Away, I suddenly realized that the building had been a brewery before it became a chemical plant.  “Realized” is the only appropriate word I could use here; it simply struck me.  Even though this place is completely an artifact of my own imagination, I discovered a piece of its history.

This year for NaNoWriMo – and wish me luck with this approach, because I have no idea if it will work – I decided to write thirty scenes for my novel, one a day during November.  I have a lot of threads in play, and they all need to go in certain directions, but a linear/sequential approach seems more difficult than necessary, since they’re all jumbled up in my mind.  So I wrote thirty scene cards, which I will attack one at a time starting on Sunday.

Writing thirty scene cards required thirty small acts of inspiration.  Inspiration is elusive, and everybody knows that.  The best you can do is increase your odds.  I believe in trying to cultivate a state of active waiting.  The active part is attention and preparedness.  If there is a place in my story and it needs a certain part, I can at least try to define the shape of that part, and be ready to recognize it when it happens to roll by me.

It’s such a presumptuous idea, to write a blog post about inspiration, as if I had it by the tail.  I don’t, and I’m deeply aware that this is an area subject to what Dr. Laurie Santos calls “The G.I. Joe Fallacy.”  The G.I. Joe Fallacy is mistakenly thinking that because you understand something, that understanding will change your behavior.  (It comes from the phrase “Knowing is half the battle!” which I remember well from cartoon PSAs when I grew up.)  I may be aware that active waiting is the best way to cultivate moments of inspiration.  That doesn’t make the waiting any easier for me.

Franz Kafka wrote, in a notebook intended only for himself: “You need not leave your room.  Remain sitting at your table and listen.  You need not even listen, simply wait.  You need not even wait, just learn to become quiet, and still, and solitary.  The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked.  It has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.”

Robert Pirsig, in his unparalleled Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, equated waiting for inspiration with the Zen state of nothingness in consciousness.  If you’re trying to remove a motorcycle’s cover plate but you accidentally tear the head off the screw, you’re stuck.  But wait, and “no matter how hard you try to hang on to it, this stuckness is bound to disappear.  Your mind will naturally and freely move toward a solution.  … The solutions all are simple after you have arrived at them.  But they’re simple only when you know already what they are.”

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Success Again

From “The World’s A Madhouse” by Bowers and Butchvarov

Listen live free: https://www.cpbutchvarov.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/11/Madhouse-08-success-again.mp3

Impede, implode, implant your data
Interpose apocalyptic fear
The dead are whispering wise advice
Somehow you cannot hear
The watchers know your search behavior
All your favorite sites for girls and guns
Computer eye, unblinking at you
Compiling all your deeds undone

So God led you down into the shadows
Trapped in hidden mechanism gears
Step on the gas, pedestrians scatter
Trade your life and dreams for a career
Secure your bunker, disguise your weapons
Nervous laughter edged with helpless rage
The drooling gibberish, senseless babble
Push the bird back in the cage
Feeling way too fine, that's the sign
You're about to crash

Your stardust wand, that Disney crap
Match it with your sleek stiletto blade
Spiced up, spaced out, packing heat
Jittered, jagged, and all frayed
That swirling flock of blackbirds
Flat and dreadful as a falling pane of glass
Heartbeat and breath, warmth and sleep
For what, you cannot ask
Feeling way too fine, that's the sign
You're about to crash

Copyright 2020 by J.S. Bowers and C.P Butchvarov

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NaNoWriMo

October is prep time for National Novel Writing Month in November.  I’ll be racing for 50,000 words next month, just like thousands of others around the world.  One of the best books I’ve read about writing is No Plot? No Problem!, by Chris Baty, who is the founder of NaNoWriMo.  At the risk of taking all the fun out of it (it’s a really enjoyable read), here are the notes I took from this book last October while I was prepping for NaNo 2019.  Think of this as a matted tangle of good advice that probably makes very little sense out of context.  I highly recommend you read the book instead.

  • “Writing for its own sake has surprising rewards.” Seek to achieve the zone where the writer becomes a passive conduit for the story. 
  • The deadline is the essential motivator.  Low expectations, high yield, exuberant imperfection. 
  • Find time by analyzing your own daily schedule.  Set aside the internet, non-writing friends, and television.  Approach scheduling with light heart and open mind. 
  • In writing at home, isolate yourself, use uninterrupted blocks of time, limit your writing to those times, don’t write in view of a bed, be comfortable, keep the writing area neat. 
  • Listen to the voice of the universe giving you material; use a notebook to write it down. 
  • Benefits of limited planning: you might stumble across something brilliant; planning becomes an excuse to put off writing; prewriting takes the fun out of writing. 
  • What, to you, makes a good novel?  What is the novel you want to read?
  • What are the things that bore or depress you in novels?  Make these two lists.  If you won’t enjoy reading it, you won’t enjoy writing it. 
  • Pitch the plot to yourself, from start to finish, repeatedly. 
  • What would happen if we added an orangutan to the mix?
  •  The story suggests its own setting.  Model your settings on real-life locations you know. 
  • During week one: Confiscate the inner editor. 
  • Take the challenge seriously.  But do not take the work too seriously.  Ride the momentum.  Don’t delete, but mark sections to be deleted. 
  • Keep a novel notes file. Don’t tell anybody your story. 
  • Write about something that scares you.  Ask somebody to tell you about their strange uncle. 
  • Watch a good TV show with analysis in mind. 
  • Don’t feel like each chapter has to be right before moving on to the next one. 
  • Split up writing sessions, two a day, and write every day during week one. Wake up 30 minutes early. 
  • Week two: Still having no plot is not uncommon.  Characters may rise and fall in importance.  “Don’t get it right, get it written.” 
  • When you’re not writing, be open to “plot flashes.” 
  • Create notes within the story to indicate idea changes, don’t go back and change earlier chapters. 
  • Push yourself to exhaustion because you know you’ve got the potential. 
  • Switch to writing on paper sometimes. 
  • End your writing sessions in mid-sentence. 
  • Week three: Catch up on any word debt.  Feel gravity taking effect as the trail turns downhill.  Let the momentum fly.  Break things, break a character’s arc.  Add more conflict. 
  • Week four: Finish.  Write the ending, regardless of how far away you think you are. Come-from behind victories are a time-honored part of NaNoWriMo.

Good luck to anybody who is participating this November.  God bless NaNoWriMo and Chris Baty.

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Susan Balogh

I’m tremendously pleased this week to interview an author I really admire: Susan Balogh. Susan is a holistic healing and happiness coach – and writer! – whose 2019 book, 100 Days of Actions and Intentions To Create the Life You Wish For, is something like a detailed treasure map to living a happier, more fulfilled life. Every page sparkles with insights and guidance, with practices each day to bring the experiences to life. Here is a beautiful quote from the book:

“When you’ve brought your mind and body into harmony with the natural free spirit within you, you allow the wellbeing to flow, and when it flows, all good things come your way with effortless ease.”

Learn more about Susan Balogh and her fascinating projects at her web site, https://wishmorewellness.com/

Susan Balogh, 100 Days

Susan, how would you describe your book, 100 Days of Actions and Intentions To Create the Life You Wish For?

The overall goal of the book is to help you feel better on a daily basis so that you begin to attract healthier, happier experiences and relationships. It’s also meant to help readers believe in themselves and believe in their desires, as well as their ability to achieve them.  I really wanted them to feel as though the words they were hearing were specifically meant for them, so I tried to make it very relatable. Since it’s meant to help you practice feeling how you want to feel, it’s written from the reader’s point of view. I did my best to design it in a way that would gradually build up their positive momentum. The idea was to keep leveling up to a higher level of wellbeing throughout the book. 

Your book is structured with readings, guidance, and actions daily over a 100-day period. How did you choose this structure, and did you find it easy to work with while you were writing your book?

For the reader’s best possible results for a personal transformation, I felt it was important to encourage a daily practice. It also needed to be long enough to practice the actions and intentions until they became a routine thought or habit, if so desired. 

Each chapter has its own topic with a beginning and ending. That made it quite easy to write the book. However, I made it all-inclusive of anything I felt was important to include about life. I wanted it to feel a bit like a handbook for life that could help someone feel better from morning to night. That was the goal, and it became a lengthy project that was well worth my time!  

Your book is also structured with three major 30-day sections. Can you give us an overview of each of the three sections?

Each step is meant to help you practice a feeling until it becomes a part of who you are. The first thirty days are meant to help you practice the feeling of total wellbeing. 

The second step is practicing more love and appreciation for yourself and all that life brings you. It’s focused on improving your relationship with yourself and others, and feeling more deeply satisfied with your life.

Step three is meant to help you achieve an abundance mindset and gain clarity on your wishes and dreams. 

Who are some of the authors who have influenced you? What books would you like to recommend?

Deepak Chopra was one of my favorites when I started becoming more purposeful in my thinking. I loved The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success and kept it close for a lot of years.  

Another somewhat unusual writer and a favorite of mine is Wallace D. Wattles, who wrote his books in the early 1900’s, three of the most popular being  The Science of Getting Rich, The Science of Being Well, and the Science of Being Great.

Is there a time of day you like to write? A certain place you like to write?

I have found myself writing morning, noon, and night,  and haven’t found a favorite time yet. However, some of my favorite moments are those I’ve spent writing on my laptop and sipping on wine, while seated at a restaurant patio that overlooked the water. I also tend to wake up in the morning with an idea for a new book or the book I’m writing and speak it right into my phone to get the idea in there before it’s forgotten. 

Do you write every day? Do you outline before you write?

I am in the habit of writing every day, yes. I’m usually eager to get to it and I find it so exciting that it never feels like work. Generally I get a whole bunch of ideas that keep coming again and again, and then I finally stop to look at all of it and try to put it in some kind of order. I think I feel better putting down the ideas when I think of them. But oddly, I often end up starting over and ignoring everything I wrote down. Ha! But I find it all comes back to me. 

When I am caught up in a writing project, I know I sometimes dream about the characters or dream I am writing. Have you had an experience like that? Are you an intuitive writer?

I often imagine I  have a client or potential reader sitting in front of me and that helps me think of what they may need or want to hear. Much of what I write is based on what I’ve learned in my own personal experiences, as well as the research I did over a period of many years when I needed it for my own self-healing purposes. Since I never refer to anything as I write, I consider myself a very intuitive writer. I feel that it’s the best way to write; from the heart. And I often feel guided as I’m writing. 

How have you promoted your book? Has the pandemic interfered with your plans for promotion? Do you think the marketing of your book has gone according to plan?

When the book first came out on 2019 I had it on a few discounted book promotion sites that were very helpful. I have also enjoyed doing several book signings and presentations at various book stores and libraries. I did some advertising through Amazon that seemed to go well. Since the pandemic began I’ve been so focused on writing new books that I haven’t thought of any upcoming plans for promotion. I do things rather spontaneously, rather than by following a plan.

What new writing projects do you have coming up that you’re excited to tell us about?

I’m finishing up now on a self-discovery workbook that is based on step 1 of the first book and should be available in a couple weeks. I plan to do step two and three as well. And I have written outlines for several books that will become my new journal series. I intend to have a couple of those out before Christmas as well.

Honestly, my favorite part of having my books written is that I can keep them on hand and give them to someone I meet that might enjoy it. It’s a thrill for me every time.

What advice would you give to aspiring writers?

I believe there’s a book in each and every one of us. If you know something of value to someone else, such as a life lesson you learned or a great story to tell, there’s someone out there who wants to read it. And it can be so exhilarating to see your book out there and to know there are people around the world who are reading it. It’s much easier than you think it is. Do it well. Do it with heart. And let it be fun. You can even make a career out of it if you want to.

Thank you for a great interview, and best of luck, Susan!

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Characters

A friend suggested I write a blog post about my “process of developing characters.”  Caution: questionable advice ahead!

Fiction can’t exist without characters, but the extent to which characters are developed can vary a great deal from novel to novel.  I’ll point to Cat’s Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut, one of my favorite novels, as an example of a book where the characters are never developed any further than the absolute minimum.  We’re not told anything about anybody, beyond the details that propel the story forward.

The NaNo Prep 101 workbook, a resource offered for participants in NaNoWriMo, suggests 46 questions for a writer to answer about the fictional characters they are creating.  I waver in my opinion, whether that’s admirable or ridiculous.  I don’t think much about my characters before I start writing.  The story will create them; the narrative as it spins out tells me about them. 

In a graphic novel, the reader knows what every character looks like from the very first panel.  In a traditional novel, you never know what the characters look like in the reader’s mind.  A writer can set some boundaries by spelling out a tedious physical description, but unless certain features are critical to the plot, what’s the point?  Let the reader’s imagination run wild!  In my completed YA manuscript Silver Sparks, I didn’t keep a vision of central character Kaneia Stellivar’s face in my mind as I wrote.  When Hollywood comes calling for that book, they can cast any actress of the right age, as far as I am concerned.

Characters in novels come to life in what they say and what they do.  In particular, they reveal themselves by interacting with each other in dialogue.  In my writing, I want characters’ voices to be distinguishable from each other.  But the road to a distinct character voice is strewn with hazards.  Bad accents, drawls, overactive vocabulary, verbal tics, signature words or phrases – these can easily become a point of scorn if used poorly.

One of the reasons I usually write in first person is because I want to have one character who observes and filters everybody else.  A central character narrates in her own voice, and she serves to create all the other characters by virtue of their relationship to her.  I like the mechanics of a storyline where all the judgments and assessments are made by one character.

Someday, maybe, I’ll rewrite this blog post after I’ve recently read Franny and Zooey by J.D. Salinger, and I’ll reach 100% opposite conclusions.  There is a beautiful example of a character-driven story.

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Code

Imagine a character grid, six rows by six columns.  There are 36 positions.  In the first 26 positions are the letters of the alphabet.  The numbers 0 through 9 are in the final positions.  Now you have a perfectly simple encoding device: identify a row and a column in order to specify any character.

This coding mechanism has the advantage of being simple to use, either to encode or decode a message.  (Its disadvantages are many, including the lack of any punctuation.)  Every character requires two symbols, from a set of (at least) six symbols.  The better you can conceal the meaning of the six symbols, the more difficult it will be for someone who doesn’t understand the code to break it.

In the novel I’m currently writing, the characters use the numbers on a digital clock to create a key for the six symbols.  When you look at a digital clock, the time is shown using the numbers 0-9 in four positions.  For each digit, there are seven small LED bars used to make up the shape of the number.  Four of the bars are vertical: two on the left and two on the right.  The other three bars are horizontal: top, middle, and bottom.

The number 8 uses all seven bars.  In this code key, 8 is used to represent the first row or first column.

Six bars are used to form three different numbers on a clock: 0, 6, and 9.  In our code key, it’s a dealer’s choice which to use to represent the second row or second column.  Use a 0, 6, or 9 randomly.

Similarly, the digital clock has three numbers that use five bars apiece: 2, 3, and 5.  Use 2, 3, or 5 to represent the third row or column.  This “shuffle” element in the second and third positions contributes to the opaque nature of the code.  Ten characters are used to represent only six positions.

Using four bars, the number 4 represents the fourth row or fourth column.  The number 7 uses three bars; it signifies the fifth row or column.  Finally, all that remains is the character that only uses two of the digital clock’s LED bars: the number 1, therefore used to denote the sixth row or sixth column.

87-77-77-91, 88-05-20’46 62-40?

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Listserv

Today is the 30th anniversary of the first time I used the Internet.  (This statement is accurate within an estimated range of eight months in either direction.)  Thirty years ago today, plus or minus, I learned how to use email on the George Washington University VM server, and I joined a mailing list for writers.

As far as I’m concerned, the first killer app of the Internet was not Gopher or Usenet or FTP, but a mail-list management platform called Listserv.  You sent a “subscribe” command via email to the Listserv host, and it plugged you in to the discussion list you requested.  Soon your inbox was bursting with on-topic and off-topic messages from people you didn’t know who shared your interest.

In 1990, a lot of the available discussion lists were technical, since IT people made up the majority of users of email.  (We spelled it “e-mail” back then.)  There were also fan groups for your favorite bands, as long as those bands were the Grateful Dead, Indigo Girls, or Blue Oyster Cult.  There must have been others, but those are the three I can verify.

The WRITERS list became an important community for me.  I’ve come to realize that there were times in my life where I thought of myself as a writer, and other times when that wasn’t really part of my identity.  Being a member of a group of writers has always been part of what keeps me engaged and working.  This electronic forum was my support group in the early 1990s, and I am grateful to all the people who were a part of it.  I got to know a lot of interesting people, and I never met most of them.

An online group enables collaboration in a way that in-person groups don’t.  You’re exchanging words anyway, so why not do a writing project together?  Somebody on the WRITERS list, and I’m very sorry I can’t credit this person but I don’t remember who it was, invented a fictional newspaper called the PARSONS MESSENGER & INTELLIGENCER.  Parsons was a mythical small town in Iowa served by a weekly rag with a cranky and quirky staff of writers.  I had the privilege to edit one of the last issues of the PM&I, with more than a dozen contributors. 

As far as I can determine, there is no archive of the WRITERS listserv, and all the issues of the PARSONS MESSENGER & INTELLIGENCER are lost to time, except for this one.

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